Friday, 11 April 2014

The Track









  Darkness still remains regent

And I slip quietly from my bed,

Summoning the senior hound to join

My lonely and lovely journey.

Black magic silence beckons us

And how can we resist the call?



A slow and languid column of smoke

Rises quietly up into the navy sky,

Untroubled by any south-westerly,

As the early workers at the brewery

Conjure their intoxicating and celebrated drink.

Up behind Y Plas, I hear the rasping, gasping cough

Of Howard Griffiths, and sadly think

Tomorrow may not come for him.






Dawn is too sweet a word for the monochrome

And dismal scenes we race through.

My companion is like a small, pale ghost

As he forges ahead, his eyes glassy and other-worldly

In the sparse yellow light, chasing the host

Of night-time beings as they scurry away

Before the break of day.



The ancient railway has drifted from memory

But its spirit lingers on, with fragments

Of coal dust, weariness and a lust

For Felinfoel Double Dragon at the end of the shift.

Shadowy miners make their perpetual journey to the pit

Passing their own gravestones at Trebuan, oblivious to the present,

Forever trapped in a grim and sombre warp of time,

Hard-working faces blackened and caked in grime.

The cadaverous, grinning guard escorts this macabre host,

His smile never reaching his eyes.




I look , I see, I peep inside the secret lives

Of those who dwell quietly

Along the track of history and mystery and bikes and hikers....

They dwell snug and safe, houses warm and bright, and hug each other

Tightly and watch....

They live their lives on the other side, oblivious to the travellers,

The shivering movers in-between,

The people who walk and talk and cycle and dream their

Dreams along the eternal way from north to south

And back again.

They live their lives, and do not realise

What happens on the other side.....





A nappy, cereal and vest-clad child

Eyes fixed and wide,

Made blue and bold by the morning programme

As he watches entranced, standing firm

With his chubby flat feet and his baby shadow

Casting indigo bodies on the beige shag-pile.

The Night Garden holds him fast

While his knock-kneed stance denies him one last

Mouthful of that erstwhile warm and comforting slop

Called breakfast.



The subtle gradient speeds us along, down

Through serious trees and hedges, allowing

A swift and easy journey towards town.

The misty rain softens the air, Dog following

Closely, not daring to leave me amidst

The shadowy memories of the departing night.

A solitary cyclist fails to alert us of his silent approach.

We jump, hearts beating, eyes huge with fright

As the spectral form passes through into the cool, grey light.



The rugby field lies muddy and empty

Of the butch and blaspheming, lager-swilling

Players. Rivulets of water from last night's deluge

Run relentlessly down the grassy slopes, spilling

And splashing onto the orange-lit track,

Making pools of gold which soak my shoes.

The Llanelli Star lies sad and sodden on the ground

As befits the fate of yesterday's news.

We carry on, the rain in our faces, embracing the morning.






The awakening town stirs into reluctant life.

Bleach thrown over the speckled, splattered vomit,

By a man from Krakow, eradicates last night's feast,

And the shapeless dark form of a wicked hobbit

Obstructs our path, the wheelie-bin has its own persona

In the dim and chilly twilight.

Onwards, always south, the sky brightens,

The chill breeze quickens and the sound of the boat-train

Lends a melancholic strain

To the whole struggling, yawning scene.

We turn around, we head for home, with cold paws and fingers,

Not wishing to linger

A moment longer than we should.





Photography by  www.ken-mcdermott.com













Tuesday, 25 March 2014

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Sunday, 23 March 2014

Ten Minutes

                                                                                           Tower of London viewed from the River Thames.jpg



So cold, so cold.
My hands are so cold, and I cannot feel my feet.
My fingers and toes are numb
And I shiver, yet must succumb
To those men, those harbingers of my final heartbeat.
Spring sunshine never shone so sweet
Through that narrow gap in the wall.
May.  Spring.  I wish I may fly away from it all
And never return to this moment.

They are coming, I see them walk with purpose
Along the bright, green length of polite and courteous
Grass that will soon stain bright and red
With my innocent blood. Not guilty, not guilty.
My insistent pleas fall upon ears that will never listen.
I am caught in their treacherous web.
Like a moth, I flew too close to the flame and my wings
Are starting to burn.

I allow myself to be prepared
In sombre shift and gown. I wonder that
They allow me to be spared
The axe.
The patrician sword awaits my slim neck
And my mind cannot accept any of it.
Why bother? Why comb my dark and whorish hair?
For who will even care
When my white face gazes up in disbelief at the severed neck
Which lies bleeding on the straw.
Is it mine?
Today I will die, according to the law
Of this monster I once loved.

And still love; will always love
For the next ten minutes, which is all that remains
Until my spirit will fly like a dove
To God, if He exists.
Ten minutes.
My life is ticking away, I start to pray
For forgiveness, absolution  -  for retribution
Against this miscarriage of justice.

My ladies fuss about me, weeping softly
And I wonder at the fact that tonight                              
They will still be here, in the gently fading light
Of England’s purple dusk, when I am gone,
Like a reluctant child sent to bed, yet the party continues....
My sun sets already behind the lofty
Columns of men’s ambition.
How can I feel contrition?

The small life in my cell continues quietly,
The spider crawls silently, dispassionately
And a fly flits to and fro, oblivious
Of my complete and utter terror.
I smell the damp, the denial of spring-like warmth
As the knowledge of the horror
Of my last few minutes seeps slowly
Into my desperate consciousness.

Are You Commemorating the Execution of Anne Boleyn?

I must wear a coif. My neck must lie exposed
To the swift and shining sword
As it flies humming through the air
And cuts cleanly like a butcher’s knife.
Severing my life.
Will I detect the metallic scent of blood
As it flows in a rushing, gushing flood
Before my fading, once-bright eyes?


My prison door opens.
I am ready.
I must keep my appointment with
Monsiuer Rombaud and his shining sword.
Farewell, my Lord, though you left me without a word.


Anne Boleyn
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Sunday, 28 July 2013

Gobbo the Yobbo





I watch the scene quite hidden, a covert
Observer of this puke-provoking , fury-promoting
Spectacle of filth and dirt.
The safety of my window serves to protect me
 From this tragi-comedy.
Here comes Neanderthal Yob,
Ejecting with expert skill
The sticky, flicky lump of gob
From his blaspheming mouth, seemingly at will.

Shoulders hunched, hood up,
Scowling at the ground;
Adolescent  loathsome pup –
Never failing to amaze and astound
Me with his sure and spiteful aim.
Such vitriolic venom emits from
His cat’s-bottom mouth,

And the nicotine-stained mucous
Speeds rapidly down south
Landing on the sad, submissive
Pavement, enriching the luscious
And ancient mosaic with another youthful masterpiece
Of delicate grey and viscous phlegm.
Depressed black joggers descend with relentless
Sorrow down his skinny, undernourished spine;
His lack-of-workman’s bottom  shines
 With spotty whiteness
Against the faded gloom of washed-out Calvin Klein
Boxers, and the soles of his trainers flap
Noisily in the wind of Station Road.
Telling tales of his sexploits, his wheels
And his very shady deals.

Seven days since his last baptism
In the steamy, slimy council-grimy bathroom
Renders his darkening crevices
Rank with the overripe bloom
Of a fungal invasion.
His intense frustration
At his lack of animal magnetism
Is as evident as his
Poor digestion.

But she finds him cute,
This bouncy pink babe with the large red rose
Sprawling its way across her spongy, pale bottom,
Her lurex thong dividing its vast expanse,
The fifty pence stud glittering in her retrousse nose.
She teeters behind him, pushing the pram of desperate hope,
Wishing he would look around and remember
She existed at all.

She gives him her credit, her vouchers, her plump willing body
And her benefit money
Which he rightly deserves, in his miaow-muddled mind;
He gives her a bruise, a kid and the clap
And he thinks it’s funny
When she starts to cry
At the sheer despair of it all. But she stays.
“Cos I loves ‘im, see, like.”                 

Up the street they continue their journey,
Their unison in their warped microcosm
Almost touching in its pachydermatous pathos,
Getting smaller  and disappearing around the corner
Of  Station Road.
A symbiotic organism,
A strange elitism,
And all hope lost.

I turn away.
Mrs McDermott makes me some tea.

Monday, 13 May 2013

The Pleiades



The Pleiades Fell To Earth

Such bright and sparkling light,
so many crystalline fragments of stellar blue and white
fell to earth last night.
A Standard Explosion lit up the sky
with all the guaranteed thrill and skill of a brilliant
and divine symphonic orchestrion.
I searched the midnight sky for my sisters.
Had they rushed from their snug sorority,
their exclusive solidarity,
to blast my struggling planet with their fierce and searing fire?

Where had those shimmering siblings chosen to land?
Were they lying simmering hotly on the sands
of the indifferent Nile?
Or did their splendid spangles spin and twirl
around the hurly-burly of Pigalle’s pavements,
landing unnoticed on the arrondissment
of vibrant and hedonistic life?

But I wanted them to land on me.
I wished for a crown of fire to illuminate
my humdrum life, my tiresome, tedious and strife-driven
existence of work and care and sorrow and conscience-driven
daily grind.
I wished for some scintillating spark to ignite my
despairing mind.
I wished for the inspiration
of some other-worldly, super-human
and intuitive woman
to fill me with hope and understanding.

Tonight I look up at the midnight sky.
I sigh.
My seven sisters.
They are still there to comfort.
They never fell at all.

Friday, 22 February 2013

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Sunday, 3 February 2013

Red Room




The red room closes in
And forces me out into
The silent din
Of the freezing street.
The quiet overwhelms me and
My cold ears are deafened
By the watchful, staring stars.
The snow-moussed cars
Are still, and the sliver of silver
Who calls herself a moon,
That watchful mother, that scornful other
Parent who knows me oh, so well,
Simply stares down at her shivering daughter.

I look down                          
At the twinkling  town
Where I was born, where I grew up
And branched out, blossomed and threw up
Occasionally, after a good night out
With the girls, in the Camelot,
Sir Kissalot being renamed Sir Missalot
As he stood me up for the twentieth time.
Olde English cider geared us up, providing the fire
For our hedonistic souls and the ache for our heads
In the morning.

I live on an island above the streets,
Always longing, yearning for the past,
Those years which raced away too fast.
Watching the present, but seeing the sweet
Youthful scenes, the ambitious dreams
Which came and went.
My heart lies deep in the centre of this night-time town,
Where the snow has turned to muddy brown
And people can walk and text without falling.
I can hear the drunken revellers calling
Out to each other, quarrelling
Over the last taxi, the last dance, the last kiss.

My thoughts fly swiftly over the roofs,
The sparkling, icy fields
And softly settle once more above the place which
Holds me captive.
They hover there, hoping to heal
The desire in my restless soul.
My silver cord is stretched, my furtive
Search is fruitless, the past has gone
Forever